I was looking at the sky
Wondering what you could be thinking before you died
The way I'm living inside
Hoping I can be a father my child can survive
Not the way I used to be
I'm not the way I used to be

Scares me to think about the mystery
All the ways it can go wrong
As if it was all gonna happen to me
You're the one who's gotta carry it home

When I go to sleep
I don't wanna be scared to dream
Of how good it can be
When I go to sleep
I don't wanna be scared to dream
Scared to dream of you

I'm not the way I used to be
Not the way I used to be
I'm not the way I used to be
Not the way I used to be
I used to be