2 years today, I just pulled the blankets off the mirrors for the first time Surprised at the new lines on my face that remind how I tried to catch an illusion Hiding from me, hiding from facing the height of what I hope to be Kept all my eggs in someone else's basket Thinking they would care enough to not let someone smash it
What's wrong with me, I got this need to give back to a world that keeps me And if I do just for myself it's like I'm selfish 'Cause I always had this thing about staying grounded and down And it's not been worth it to share with the people I pick that I sought to prove they care And I feel like a pussy sayin' shit out loud But I'm openin' my eyes and I see myself now
I left myself behind While chasing after dreams I could never find I lived for all your lives A machine for you to unplug at any time I just realized today that I've wasted away
Maybe it's too late - the end has a date - and I'm cramming for the final test It hasn't been a total mess, I'm just striving for higher And humility will build me if I confess Some people do what they chose some people look for every bump in the road And some pretend and they play a good role For the people that depend - they all come and go
Wrote half an album in 2 long days as I reflected and tried to take a hard next step Of a spiritual kind so maybe I can find some sense as I pick apart a burdened mind So I spread out on the floor all the pieces that I thought were fully formed I see how much more I've got to go I reach for a new drug to medicate my soul
I left myself behind While chasing after dreams I could never find I lived for all your lives A machine for you to unplug at any time Just realized today
I left myself behind While chasing after dreams I could never find I lived for all your lives To forget about the answers I need to find I just realized today that I've wasted away