Cos' I've had the best of the worst sides
And I have these lungs, oh
And I've had too many flash fires
That I just let them burn

Till my chest is on fire
And my head just won't die
I guess I'm lying cos' I wanna
I guess I'm lying cos' I don't

Cos' I just feel so tired
Like it's move or slowly die
You ain't you when you're like this
This ain't you and you know it
But ain't that just the point?

You don't know how to let go
Who said this must be all or nothing?
But I'm still caught below
And I'll never let you know
No I can't tell you nothing

Cos' I'm a fucking mess sometimes
But still I could always be
Whatever you wanted
But not what you needed
Especially when you
been needing me

Cos' I'm a fucking mess sometimes
And I'll say what I don't mean
Just cos' I wanted
Or maybe I need it
Swear lying's
the only rush I need

Cos' all I needed was
some words to say
That all these feelings
don't mean shit to me
Cos' it's all just chemicals anyway
Anyway

And I got way to many routes to take
To make this all just go away
And find another heart to break
So heartless with the words I say
Just saying what I'm supposed to say
Cos' I had nothing for you
I can't love when
I can't even love myself

Things I would rather be
Thoughts at the back of my head
but I'm addicted to hurting
And I got these lungs
And I spent too many late nights
Thinking a hole in the earth

Till the sky is on fire
And my head still won't die
I guess I'm lying cos' I want to
I guess I'm lying cos' I don't

Cos' I just feel so tired
Like I need something
to come alive
She said you ain't you when you're like this
This ain't you, what you done?
And I said that's the point

You don't know how to let go
Who said this must be all or nothing?
But I'm still caught bellow
And I'll never let you know
No I can't tell you nothing

Cos' I'm a fucking mess sometimes
But still I could always be
Whatever you wanted
But not what you needed
Especially when you
been needing me

Cos' I'm a fucking mess sometimes
And I'll say what I don't mean
Just cos' I wanted
Or maybe I need it
Swear lying's
the only rush I need