You waste yourself, like you waste us all
And still she swears, it's not your fault
She clings to the thought, it keeps her alive
But I see through your fucking lies

Can't you see the fury
Pouring from my eyes
Killed everything you've ever loved
Why couldn't you have died

And all this spent wondering if everything we had was just going to fucking be okay was a waste
I've fallen so so far since then
I wish you could just look me in the eye one last time before the end and see how much I fucking miss you
I've fallen so so far since then

It destroys me just to see you
To even look at all
The sight of your broken soul
Every time you fall

Can't you see we need you father
I don't care if you can't walk
I just need to see your heart intact
You can make this stop

But fuck you are far fallen
From where you once stood proud
Why the fuck are you laughing
Do you find me funny now?

And all this time you've moved your tongue
Trying to get inside my head
And all this time all I could think
Is how I wish that you were d (e) ad

And you've been suffering for so long
And of course I fucking care
But you won't ever fucking hear this song
You act like we're not even there

I loved you once but now I can't recall
The man you used to be
Or were you ever even man at all
You are only ever sick in my memories

How could you forget that once upon a time you fucking loved us to death

I can't, just for, -get about you

It destroys me just to see you
To even look at all
The sight of your broken soul
Every time you fall

Can't you see we need you father
I don't care if you can't walk
I just need to see your heart intact
You can make this stop

But fuck you are far fallen
From where you once stood proud
Why the fuck are you laughing
Do you find me funny now?

And all this time you've moved your tongue
Trying to get inside my head
And all this time all I could think
Is how I wish that you were d (e) ad

I, can't, just forget about you
I, can't, just let all of this go

I, can't, just forget about you
I, can't, just let all of this go


I, can't, just forget about you
I, can't, just let all of this go

I, can't, just forget about you
I, can't, just let all of this go

Father, I am alone here
You never showed me how to be a man
Father, I am alone here
I'm doing the best I can

If you can hear me father I'm so sorry
I was just a boy and I was so so angry
None of this was your fault, I just wish that you were here
It's been getting colder here year after year