Sleeping awake

Waking up in the middle of the night
Sweating and thinking of stop thinking
Crazy evil thoughts surrounds me
Always coming but never going
I’m trapped inside myself
Why can’t I control my thoughts?

Evilness burn deep in my mind
Purposeless
I try hard to sleep again
useless

looking nowhere in the middle of the darkness
forcing my brain to forget
afraid to sleep again
I try to find a reason for life
But it seems that death is the only answer

Laid in my bed unable to move
Want to scream but no muscle works
Sleeping awake
Just waiting the end of the night
Thinking is no good idea