I'ma start on three
Time to play the keys I'ma start on c
Had to pay dues, had to start on free
Before I can help you I gotta start on me
I mean I've never been the type to, type you
Never feels right when I write you
I just wanna fight you
Insight new feeling
But its hard to make the rounds
Make life sound great
But it's harder than it sounds
And I don't know why they wanna blame me
Made a little money
But I'll never let it change me
Made a lot of money now a nigga feeling angry
Because in the end well
I guess I'm not the same me
But thats how its suppose to be right?
Searching for the stars
Because I'm close to the night
Afraid that I'ma drop the ball
Like I ain't holding it right
And judging by voice
Fuck I'm supposed to be white, right?
You know I grew up in the spotlight
Thousand point scorer high school
Had my shot right
Always had a girl
Getting head at a stoplight
Never wanna leave school
This is what the top like?
Drinking 'cause it supposed be fun
Like "fuck it I'm young"
Man I'm supposed to be dumb
Supposed to be numb
Girl you ain't close to a nun
There's supposed to be cum
Come sunday you gon say that
You'r done but hum
Well I bet that your not
Used to tell my ex girl
"you forget that your hot"
And these guys just wanna fuck you
Wanna get to your spot
Don't let us become undone
Don't let em get to the knot
Not gonna say that I wasn't crazy or insane
But there were nights when you left me in pain
Trust wasn't there
We just evaporated
The house that love built
It became dilapidated, uh
I had to build from the ground
And two years later thats when I found
The woman that I knew
I would dedicate my life to
And realized theres emotions that
I can bring the mic to
And since then it's been a battle never-ending
Never had money
So time I was never spending
Started seeing money from the slow grind
Major label cosign now
They fucking think that I'm pretending?
Nah nah, I promise you never that
Speaking my mind is the thing that I am better at
And I ain't got time for the politics
Groupies, hollow chicks
Thots that swallow dicks nah
Tell you once again girl I'm taken
Try to make a move
I'm sorry but your mistaken
Me and sara have a bond
And it's never breaking
Think about her when I sleep
I think about her when I'm waking up
Tell these rappers no they can't bait me
Tell my friends
You have every single right to hate me
Money's what I'm making
So I can't let it make me
See how long it took
So I can't let it take me
Down, and if does then I sinking
Really I'm just trying get a buzz
When I'm drinking
Missing all theses moments
Always does when I'm blinking
Crashed my moms car, kicked out of a bar
What was I thinking?
Nah, nah I wasn't, thats the truth
Sorry I was drunk, thats just an excuse
Thats just the proof
My raps have substance
Really to hide my substance abuse
Traits from a birth mother
That I never met
Birthed from a father I forget
Shit load of siblings that I regret to inform
That we'll never be close
'cause me you don't get
[hendersin talking]
Nah and its not your fault
Thats the way that I survived
Way I stayed alive, when I went to the hospital
For failure to thrive
And when I look in the mirror
Sometimes I think theres not too much to see
But the one I can count on
Is I will always have me
And I struggle everyday like
Why can't I let fucking people in?
I don't know, I don't know
Every single day
I don't know why, I don't know why