Help me, my brother's dead What's your name? Nicki What do you mean by your brother's dead? He killed himself How did he do it? With a gun Okay, are you home alone? I'm home alone with my sister Okay Get someone here quickly Did you find him, Nicki? Yeah, and now he's dead
You've been through some shit, through some shit Hold on tight, don't lose your shit You're just like me I'mma prove that shit Got a noose tied tight, better loosen it Haven't slept all night, hallucinatin' 40 hours, mind is fadin' Heart is racin', grip your chest Contemplate about your death Nobody but you got you Fuck everybody around you They just doubt you Maybe you think they'd be better off without you Think your life don't mean shit Fuck it, what's the reason? Wish I wasn't breathin' All I do is resent Anything and everything to do with me I'm through with me I pop the bottle Swear to God I'm 'bout to swallow every dream Godspeed Give a fuck about me Don't try to surround me With your positivity, I'm happy with my misery Just wanna watch my wrist bleed Nobody would miss me Pop some shells look down the barrel This is it, I'm feelin' it, I'm feelin' sick I hope my family understands I'm sorry this is really it I'm sorry this is really it! (Nicki, stay on the phone with me, hun, okay?)
Gunshot, middle of the front yard Girlfriend Found the body searchin' Questions always lurkin' Answer's never comin' Sick inside her stomach Empty, feelin' nothin' She forgot what love is All black, life off track Got no will to live, lost that She just wants him brought back home again She'll never get over it Or ever learn to cope with it No savin' her, she's over it No savin' her, it's over
I've had some friends do the same shit Left me here just blamin' myself Said they never got help Bitch, I was right here All I do is fight tears Look at me! Now you're dead at six feet Suicide on 5th street Fuckin' pussy left a mother and a kid Wonderin' what Daddy did Daddy's in a better place Said they had to hide the face I just had to drive away Fuck your funeral I'm leaving you just like you left me, too I'm sick of losing you