I think I've stayed in most of my relationships too long
I was chasing a love and a life that I grew up
seeing with my parents

So it was more so about an idea in my head
than the actual relationship that I had
Also, I just didn't wanna be alone
Growing up a brown skin girl, a fat girl
essentially growing up feeling undesirable

When I got older and I had a man that desired me
it validated me, and made me feel good about myself
Therefore, the content that the validation brought me
was worth the actual pain that the relationship eventually brought
and it's a sad, scary, and vulnerable place
when you need to feel loved so much
that you're willing to accept anything