Ate lunch with the Devil, was dancin' with death
I'm makin' the most of the chance I have left
One hand to the sky, one hand on my chest
If you ask if I'm scared, then the answer is yes
I done been up, I done been poor
Not even a dollar, I slept on the floor
I'm mounting the problems, they can't be ignored
I came from the bottom to settle the score
Lord gave me a shot with this music
I promise them no more excuses
I'm tryin' so hard, you can tell by my scars
And my past is so damn abusive
It's time I tell you what the truth is
Some days I swear I feel useless
My happiness has been elusive
I had an encounter with Judas
Somewhere in the dark, along the line, I lost my mind
The old me is a prisoner that's somewhere lost in time
I had family I treated right that tried to take my life
Look at my back and you won't find
no room to put another knife

I lost my mind
I got no shame
And I keep tryin' not to cry
Got this ice runnin' through my veins
And I got fire in my eyes

All the things that I've done in the darkness
All the nights that my mind wasn't whole
And down in my soul, there's just one thing I know
Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for
They all fall down
Just like a house of cards
They all fall down
And Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for

Hold up
Throw me a second, let's roll up
Been struggling, tryna get sober
Fuck it, pass me the drink and let's pour up
But don't ask what's in my styrofoam
You can tell the lights are on
But there ain't nobody home
Been smokin' that killer shit
You can tell that I'm feelin' it
You can tell that I'm really lit
Out of body experience
Back in my zone, packin' my bag
Ain't been the same since that happened to dad
I've been barefooted while walkin' on glass
Surrounded by flames with a can full of gas
Ready for war, put on my armor
I'm doin' this for my son and my daughter
As I kneel down at the foot of the Father
Left all my problems right there at the alter
And he washed away every sin
Now I'm back and I'm better than I've ever been

I lost my mind
I got no shame
And I keep tryin' not to cry
Got this ice runnin' through my veins
And I got fire in my eyes

All the things that I've done in the darkness
All the nights that my mind wasn't whole
And down in my soul, there's just one thing I know
Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for
They all fall down
Just like a house of cards
They all fall down
And Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for