I don't love you anymore"
"Since when? "
"Now, just now
I don't wanna lie and I can't tell the truth so, its over"
"It doesn't matter, I love you. None of it matters"
"I don't love you anymore... "

4am in the morning
Contemplating on life
Maybe falling back from recording
Took me almost a week to even think about writing
Forcing myself to eat sometimes I think about dying

Maybe the worst thing I have ever felt
Every sear on my mommas shoulder was a cry for help
You wasn't there
How you think I was supposed to feel?
I never thought you'd make me feel
The way you made me feel
Let's keep it real my stomach in knots
The pressure creepin'
Middle finger to this lesson my life is tryna teach me. Remember when you looked me in my face and said
"Dont leave me"
I kept my promise
Now I'm left with nothin' but these reasons
"I hate you, I hate you"
Thats what I wanna tell her
Just lemme say it, I say it and feel a lil better
How could you do this?
Huh?
Claiming people changed?
Firing shots at my heart with some lethal rains

Its not fair, I gave you the world
And did some more
Now every night I ask myself
What I'm in it for
What am I meant for?
What was she even sent for?
Every single call on my phone I just see ignore
Feelin like I'm bout to implode
That wouldn't seem so bad
I hate to be that nigga where everything seem so sad
I know it could be worse
This is my life
You were my everything
You were suppose to be my wife
But forget it I'm blowing this tree into the sky
Every minute bout to cry
And you know the reason why
You the one who so omanis
Sucks I dont want you here
Cause you made it clear
Yeah
You made it clear. Her

Sippin liquor with my niggas
Gettin' twisted out my mind
Sleepin every hour of the day I never know the time
Blowin smoke up in the car just to get away from life
Reading scriptions on my phone
Getting close to Jesus christ
This ain't how I'm suppose to feel
I ain't ever signed for this
God I'm such a nice guy you know I was blind to this
You couldn't warn me?
Let me know she wouldn't love me back
Before I gave her everything
And walked into this heart attack
Like I don't understand people tell me this is your plan
Why couldn't she be in it?
I feel like she made me a better man
Someone I was proud to look back at in the mirror
Now I don't even know that person
I can't even hear em

Its just hard
I ain't tryna sound like I can't live without her
But I just can't stand thinking bout her
Every single hour
Every single minute
Every single second of the day
I just wanna go to sleep
And when I sleep, I see her face
And I wake up in the same spot she used to sleep in
A nightmare will probably be a better place to be at
I'm just so sick
I never been the suicidal type
But God help me as I lay my head on this pillow the night
I need, help
Maybe time
Maybe prayer
Whatever it is I need it
Cause this burdens hard to bare
And if you ever listen to this baby don't be scared
Its just life
Something that you'll probably never be prepared for
Don't cry, cuz I know how you are
I wish you well
I just wish you wasn't so far
As usual, I end up with the laws
Hear a knock on the door, make it quick, hug me off


And I've been here before, ive been here before
And I made it out, I made it out
Yeah

I've been here before, ive been here before
And I made it out yeah, I made it out yeah
OOh
I made it out
I made it out, yeah
This ain't what I want
Noo
I'm still here