Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days (Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days) Stare in the mirror and I look for another face (Stare in the mirror and I look for another face) And I get so tired of putting out fires and making up lies Checking my eyes for some kinda light, but Nothing's inside and it Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days
And I Say I hate you when I don't Push you when you get too close It's hard to laugh When I'm the joke But I can't do this on my Only you can save me from my Lack of self-control Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go
I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times (I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times) Believed it myself when I halfway apologized (Believed it myself when I halfway apologized) And it's not unfair I'm asking for prayers but Nobody cares Going nowhere like falling downstairs While everyone stares No one's there when I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times
And I Say I hate you when I don't Push you when you get too close It's hard to laugh When I'm the joke But I can't do this on my Only you can save from my Lack of self-control Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go
No, I'm just taking a shot (Ah) Maybe I'm just too eager (Oh) Maybe I lost the plot (Ha) I used to pity some people (I) Said they were missing a spine (Yeah) Maybe the problem is ego (Maybe the-) Maybe the problem is mine (Really, I'm fine) Don't get too intimate, don't get too curious This is just feeling like it's not that serious Stare at the ceiling (Feeling delirious) Fuck all your empathy I want your fury 'cause I will just Tell you I'm better then (Better then) Spit out my medicine (Medicine, ay) Drunk on adrenaline (-drenaline, ay)
And I don't know why I Say I hate you when I don't Push you when you get too close It's hard to laugh When I'm the joke But I can't do this on my Only you can save me my lack of self-control And I won't make excuses for the pain I caused us both So thank you for always standing by me even though Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go