As candid as I am I've never had the courage to Meet my own demands In spite of what I'm telling you
I'm truly scared of death A constant fear of what's coming next And if this song survives beyond my time I'll be pleasantly surprised
You have to know that there's an aching fear At the bottom of my gut Going on what it is I hear About mortal men and paradise
Oh I know, my instinct's clear Devout to my incentives But while I'm still here I'd rather make my presence felt
And I've been wrestling with my heart and my mind As I'm starting to find I'm the one left behind I can't rely on the others in line who have wasted their time, looking at what's inside
And it must be who you are behind closed doors My intuition is oblivious to what's in store In fact, my guess is as good as yours And in due time I'll realize what I'm looking for
A dream, a common misconception is that they are not attainable An optimistic ode to failure And we are parts in a machine that is built to run, til it is done and we are forced to find another home
And I've been wrestling with my heart and my mind As I'm starting to find I'm the one left behind I can't rely on the others in line who have wasted their time, looking at what's inside
It must be that I can feel it anyway This strange sensation is unreal And I feel connected to everything
I can't luck out any longer. Am I unaware, Am I unaware?
I'm far from cautious but I'm safer than you'll ever know I'm aware, Oh I'm aware