I keep on running backwards
I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers
I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient
My mother held my hand
Don't know what I'm chasing
Don't know who I am

Woke up this morning holding my head
Thinking last night is one I'll regret
Washing off the bad decisions, the blurry vision
The clues that I'm still a mess

Spitting out the taste I have in my mouth
Knowing what this all is really about
Knowing there's an explanation, an expiration
I gotta figure shit out

And they're asking me if I can see
The darkness down below
And I know it's true, I say I do
And half the time I don't

Maybe I can't make what it may take
To leave this thing behind
But I shut my eyes and cross each line
And every time

I keep on running backwards
I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers
I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient
My mother held my hand
I don't know what I'm chasing
I don't know who I am

Waking in the dead of night, I can't sleep
Sleeping in the light of day for like weeks
Reality was out of focus, I could be hopeless
Instead I gritted my teeth

I didn't have the patience left to explain
Didn't wanna wake when nobody came
I know the path I had's uneven, but while I'm breathing
I have to make my own lane

And they're asking me if I can see
The darkness down below
And I know it's true, I say I do
And half the time I don't

Maybe I can't make what it may take
To leave this thing behind
But I shut my eyes and cross each line
And every time

I keep on running backwards
I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers
I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient
My mother held my hand
I don't know what I'm chasing
I don't know who I am

So, I make it up as I go-oh-oh
I make it up as I go-oh-oh
So, I make it up as I go-oh-oh
I make it up as I go, as I go

I keep on running backwards
I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers
I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient
My mother held my hand
I don't know what I'm chasing
Don't know who I am

So, I make it up as I go-oh-oh
I make it up as I go-oh-oh
So, I make it up as I go-oh-oh
I make it up as I go, as I go